Why are you prideful? Are you prideful? Am I just swinging a bat missing completely?
What if I said that some prideful people were just covering up their low self-esteem. Some of you may say it’s foolishness to say such a thing. Prideful people are proud of themselves, they are completely self-absorbed. Some of you may say I’m nuts but bear with me for a second. I am known to be a touch on the prideful side, okay, quite a bit on the prideful side.
Let’s take a ride into the past. Shall we? About a two years ago I was one of those people who thought they weren’t good enough. I would lay in bed at night thinking that I had come up short in various areas. To keep people thinking I was okay I put on a face to show people I thought highly of myself, sometimes too highly. While people thought I had it together, in my mind I thought I was a wreck.
I then went to Dibor, which is a leadership school that teaches you how to be an all out man or woman of God, a warrior for Christ. While in Dibor I was challenged to believe what the Word of God says I am. The word of God says I am victorious, I am a Prince, and I am an Heir to the Throne. How can I believe these things and still think that I am not good enough? God began changing my DNA and how I think about myself.
Now I error on the side of being to prideful in a real sense. The sense that I think I am better than everyone else. I think that my Scottish roots play a part in that. Now it is a daily thing for God to suppress me and to show himself through me. Isn’t it funny how that happens? We get out of one thing just to fall into another.
As people we put so much stock into what other people think of us that we often miss the real opinion we should care about, that is Jesus. I cared so much that other people would see me as strong that I would put up a false bravado. I now care very little about what people think about me in comparison of what God thinks about me.
How about you? Are you truly overly prideful? Or are you just setting up a false bravado?
Good question Daniel! One that I ask myself often. I do think if you are asking this of yourself at your age, you are on the right path!! (Not to make you prideful ;0)) A good challenge for me is to love my neighbor as myself. As a daily challenge that is!! When I keep that in mind (loving others) then it overcomes any pride or false bravado and keeps me real, since my natural inclination is to concentrate on ME ME ME.
Hmmm..I think this is more of a contemplative post..meaning, I don’t think you’re going to get many direct answers on this one. I mean, who the heck wants to get on a public blog and say, “Hey, I’m prideful!” We’re all way too prideful for that!
No, but really there are some great, great thoughts in here..I think some people show pride by not accepting the fact they could be wrong about something, while others really are just doing it to cover up their insecurities like you noted in your post. It’s hard to find a balance of having pride in yourself and who you are in the Lord while not overpowering those around you. Good stuff brother. 